I’ve been having a lot of dreams about my ex-husband lately. Cin suggests that make I am thinking about him because of the holidays and, I must admit, that makes sense even if it’s not usual a conscious effort. In my dreams, I am hurt and frequently we are back together or, rather, never split up. But he wants to and I’m fighting it. Even in my dreams, I don’t know if I miss him as much as I miss the relationship, the companionship. Even in my dreams I am sick of being lonely.
And I think that is exactly why, in my waking life, I’m putting myself in such a confused position with the cuddly Nerd Boy.